
Thursday, October 30, 2008
i guess its really true. dont put too much hope my dear. protect urself my dear. dear.. hazel.
cherish, love, dote, care, cry and devoted for those who do this to u only.
im getting more and more immune everyday. i guess i gain this lvl everyday. Every... Day..
They are around 85% true for me. (: you can try it Cc:
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Welcome Pei Shan, here is your handwriting analysis.
Pei uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone.
The circumstances when Pei does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise.
Pei will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally.
Pei is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Pei doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.
Pei will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Pei believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.
Pei will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!
In reference to Pei's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Pei slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.
She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Pei can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
Pei is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Pei basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.
For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Pei has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Pei fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Pei has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Pei seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Pei seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.
~ cool yst. when BBQ with colleagues. HAPPY~ WEEEEE... no photos to upload yet. coz its all over in my frens camera ((:
food was great! esp de salad vege *even though full of garlic*. really kills me when i start drinking gassy drinks down! HAHA xD.. drank abit. been very alcoholic recently.
reach home near 1145. another can of beer den off to bed.
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mom birthday was yst. but been too happy me. totally forget to greet her.
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MOM and aunty told me tat they wanna visit my work place for ramen today. but time isnt cfm yet. but why am i so happy xD
and im gona be fat bak for sure. two hectic days to get to 46kg+ and nw im bak to 48kg+ due to yst. ok i really ate alot!! being too happy Cc:
and u noe wat? i met my junior! secondary junior Cc: and nw she's working at my work place. loves to talk to her.
*i miss all my friends*
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a guy im willing to die for! HAHA! but after reading. i realise! girls just love to be hug and kiss at all times. ME TOO! but i prefer being hug.
just stay with me. hug me. kisses me. tease me. tickle me. cry with me. angry with me. and so on.. i guess this are just all girl's dream guy?
i just love those i've bold Cc:
Cc:
When you break her heart - [ the pain NEVER really goes away ]When she misses you - [ she's hurting inside ]
When she says its over - [ she STILL wants you to be hers ]When she walks away from you mad - [ Follow her]When she stare's at your mouth - [ Kiss her ]
When she pushes you or hit's you - [ Grab her and don’t let go ]When she starts cursing at you - [ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]
When she ignores you - [ Give her your attention]When she pulls away - [ Pull her back ]When you see her at her worst - [ Tell her she's beautiful ]
When you see her start crying - [Just hold her and don’t say a word ]When you see her walking - [ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]
When she's scared - [ Protect her ]When she lays her head on your shoulder - [ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]
When she steals your favorite hat - [ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she teases you - [ Tease her back and make her laugh ]When she doesn’t answer for a long time - [ reassure her that everything is okay ]When she looks at you with doubt - [ Back yourself up with the TRUTH]When she says that she likes you - [ she really does more than you could understand ]When she grabs at your hands - [ Hold hers and play with her fingers ]
When she bumps into you - [ bump into her back and make her laugh ]When she tells you a secret - [ keep it safe and untold ]
When she looks at you in your eyes - [ don’t look away until she does ]
- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything-DON'T let her have the last word
-DON'T call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is soo much better
- Say you love her more than she could ever love you
- Argue that she is the best girl ever- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go- When she says she's OK don’t believe it, talk with her- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up
- Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Tease her and let her tease you back-Stay up all night with her when she's sick- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid
- Give her the world
- Let her wear your clothes- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her- Let her know she's important- Kiss her in the pouring rain
- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;
"Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"
nothing is de key word right nw. im nth. blank oso nth. heart oso nth. just nth..
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finally some likings for breakfast. MAC burger from dad. finish cleaning/tiding my room and cupboard. slacking with around de hse.
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i just nid a brk.. but who is gonna give me de chance and time? im gonna brk down real real real soon. its been nearly a month
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he always promise me. he always asked me not to give up. but why is he turning away from all this. i dont live happily anymore.
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你爱我吗
我可以这样问你吗
你爱我吗
你给我的温柔是寂寞吗
你爱我吗
你心里还有遗憾吗
你是真的快乐吗
你爱我吗
你这样问过自已吗
你爱我吗
你给我的拥抱是习惯吗
你爱我吗
你的心里还是唯一吗
你爱我吗
你是真的爱我吗
sorry for being straight forward.
where's all my lovely attentions. i guess im really fall deeply in love, with him. i guess in every relationship. no1 loves each other as much.
rushing.. im just rushing. i doubt so. i didnt.. i gives time to it. i nourish it with love, care and dote. de flower didnt blooms. the flower shows it bud and fade off. tats de feeling right nw. fading. isnt improving. i keep watering nowadays. shine it with bright sunlight. sing to it. winds blows it. it still fades. im a lousy gardener i guess.
mayb i just cant be a gardener right nw.
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went facial today. happy times. happy time, just pass super fast. sad, bad times seems to stay there forever.
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i tell myself this and everyday. muz be, muz be! strong. i can de.
be strong hazel chong!
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i have a bag full of swallows. who willing to carry it for me. even if is temporary im more den happy le.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
browsing thru fotos again. notice my weight. GRRR!!

im more den 52kg!!! and fish n co at parkway xD!!

i've lost this blouse. )): i wan it bak! where did i throw it. HMM

NEWYEAR! 52KG~~ WEEE

CNY terminal3
now.. let me recall some of US de fotos. there's more. but too much to upload.

when we just got tgt. mayb less den a month?

couple wear day. (: at PS

Valentines Day. im still 52kg xD

GENTING

HongKong Cafe at PS. we just love to slack at PS tat time till nw. that is oso a curse place for us. LOL anyway i slim bak le (:

my birthday EVE.

my birthday at Yaki Yuki.

national day. (:

current us ((:
counting on strong!!

recently, i kind of use to being alone. prefer staying home and slack around in my bedroom. listening to brother's noise. neighbour chit chatting. human footsteps. noises tat dunno come from where. com's song. room clock tick tock tick tock.
as it tick and tock, i noe time is passing. my room is in de mess. but i just dont bother to pack it. no idea why. mayb it just shows my life right nw.
but to my surprise. all de mess was
paperbills. i've so much things to do in life. why i seems to stuck like this.
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my family isnt doing well this few days. my uncle wife also another kind. why cant she just think about my grandparents. hais.
can i just fall and cry like a
baby nw? i cant..
i think OCTOBER for me really isnt doing very good. work, love, family, etc.. why i just cant be carefree?
suddenly i just feel like being a
leaf. or mayb
wind. at least ppl keeps wanting me to appear. they nid me.
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i think im spouting nonsense and blogging randomly. coz im just so SUDDEN. sudden feel of this and that.
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there's a hand infront of me right nw. but i just turn away from it. im really seeing de difficulties already. de difficulties of being someone tat u dont prefer.
isnt you.
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after so long. im still in love with this song
楊丞琳-可愛 Click for the MV
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my head nw is twirling with alot of songs. luckily all de songs tat twirl around i still have those in my com.
离开了
他不爱我
我会好好过
知道
叶子
好想你
怪胎
第一次
无赖
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i've already tried my best.
我已经尽了最大努力
but we are still the same.
我和你还是站在原地
i dunno wat am i up to or wat happen to me. i guess blogging is all about happy stuff u did or etc. but nw all my post is nearly all sad posting.
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i noe myself very well, i cant depend on him very much. whenever i noe he will. but he wouldnt. i noe he wont spare time to come to my blog unless he is very free. its just so different from last time. i guess he is no longer interested in wat am i thinking or feeling already.
last time no matter where is he, he will find de chance to browse thru my blog when i told him i've updated. i guess im so stuck on his sry.
i did myself proud yst. i hide everything up. *thumbs up
well, im very free recently. someone pls date me out. ((: i wanna go out.
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yst midnight asthma attacked. skin itch again. gastric pains.
nw i got to drag my feet to work.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
小酒窝Click on it for de MV.
我还在寻找 一个依靠和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼 为我生气为我闹
幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了 无聊变得有话聊 有变化了
小酒窝长睫毛 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好
小酒窝长睫毛 迷人得无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老
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everytime listen to this song. reminds me of him. his dimples always let me say. and this song is he recommend me de. im missing him so much right nw.
小酒窝长睫毛 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你生命完整的刚好
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hm, wat u guys always do when u all r bored? besides slping and gaming?
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recently kept making myself drunk during de night to fall onto bed and slp str8 away. i noe is simply unhealthy. but im just so tired to face it.
so suddenly 1 day. i just no idea. why suddenly my idea wake up. started to throw everything aside. dont worry dont care. just find my own space to slack and dance around.
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theres alot of fotos to upload. i just love looking at our fotos no matter when and wat.
while browsing, i kind of realise tat i slim down quite alot. my face look so sucks. i have lost my old appetite. i cant eat well. i keep having food reject after meal. am i sick?
HAHA dont care xD
I WAN E71!!!! and im SO GONA GET IT!

isnt it chio? dunno why so many like iphone.
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NO OFFENSE BF! its just so cute.


=XX i guess he gona kills me once he see this.
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he's uglier right? haha..
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i dont like he talk to me in cold language. but hw to tell him. hais.
sometimes i just thinks that time passes so fast that really piss me off ><
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i got in
someone wordpress about ideal guys. let me see hmm
1. The Romantic GuyHe believes in classic romance. He is constantly bringing her flowers and chocolate and lighting candles during dinner. He calls her often to let her know he is thinking about her, and looks into her eyes and tells her how he feels.
2. The Confident Guy
He is totally secure and sure of himself. He is assertive in public, and gives off an aura of power and control (within reason, of course, as the “cocky guy” is not on this list). In a relationship, he doesn’t get jealous of other men; he doesn’t feel threatened by his girlfriend’s male friends or coworkers.
3. The Artistic GuyThe artistic guy is spontaneous and lives for the moment. Often, he will use his creativity to woo her, such as with a song he has written about her or a painting he has made for her.
4. The Foreign GuyHe comes from a faraway exotic country; he might have a cute accent or a unique way of seeing the world. His social customs and everyday behavior can be a little quirky, but he always manages to come off as uniquely charming. Note that you don’t have to actually be foreign to fit into this category. If you are well-traveled or speak many languages, you might be able to pull off the charm as well as any sweet-talking foreigner.
5. The Free Spirit Guy (a.k.a. The Bad Boy)The Free Spirit Guy goes where the wind takes him, and the wind usually takes him on some kind of wacky adventure. He might ride a motorcycle, or he might skip work to take her on a last-minute road trip. But this guy doesn’t worry too much about the consequences; he just sees where his own devices take him.
6. The Intelligent/Witty GuyHe instigates conversations that are intellectually stimulating and listens to what she has to say in response. He makes her laugh with his clever sense of humor and has an uncanny ability to make politics interesting. He can shoot the breeze with her for hours and it will never get boring.
7. The Considerate GuyHe holds open her car door and pulls out her chair. He foots the bill for dinner and makes sure to offer her dessert. He always asks her out with reasonable notice and picks her up at her door. He is generally sensitive to how she is feeling and when she is ready to go home.
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- 1. The Romantic Guy
; i dont really nid him to be such romantic on flowers and candle light dinners. mayb some mushy words often? basically i think my guy is romantic enuff. my BF hits this point (:
-2. The Confident Guy
; hm, i dont like too confident guy. coz confident guy has EGO! and i hate it. i would rather guy be jealous den DONT be jealous.
-3. The Artistic Guy
; dont have to write songs and sing them to me like Jay Zhou. xD mayb strum a guitar to me? hum some songs b4 i slp. im more den contented. my BF hit this point too.
-4. The Foreign Guy
; hm, dont interest me. =X SKIP*
-5. The Free Spirit Guy (a.k.a. The Bad Boy)
; i dont really mind if this character is in him. but make sure he has his limits to certain important things.
-7. The Considerate Guy
; this point is a sure YES. which girls like rude and inconsiderate guys? i just hate those aint gentlemen. THEY SUX. this my BF hit it again!!
he just will hold on the door for me. getting off de bus he will let me take de 1st move while he follow behind watching my safety. taking out chairs for me. offers to carry my bag whenever theres a nid. coz i dont really like guy carrying my bags. make them like slave. xD
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ok i nid to prepare for work. and tml is my BIG DAY! yawns~~ im missing BF.
i wonder when its my turn to get a perfect shoe. dont have to be a perfect 1. mayb something that suits me, comfort and dont hurt me.
i guess, till i old. there still wont have this kind of shoe for me. coz my leg isnt de same size!! HAHA! so end up. sure get hurt or too loose. WEEE~~
DA YI MA ON DE LOOSE! making me super uncomfy.. hais, they pain like couldnt stop.
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yst chat alot with BF on msn. i dunno whether will it works. i just know by speaking out watever i think, will helps me. think of it nw, i dunno am i doing it de correct way. or another deeper stage to hurt myself again.
just what i wan?
hais~
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http://www.southparkstudios.com/
its nice. click on full episodes. this is 1 of de webby to let me destress other den ppstream, masturbate. LOL yawns~~
well, im missing him deeply right nw. but we decided to meet on tuesday. coz we having some cool down period for the both of us. funny la. just being near to a yr. we have been quarreling non stop. and nw we even have to cool ourself down.
i guess de day will come very soon ...
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
from today onwards. i mayb need to start from the start again. the only me. loves only me. no longer have to share anymore.
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well. days still have to pass. and i will be strong.