sorry for being straight forward.
where's all my lovely attentions. i guess im really fall deeply in love, with him. i guess in every relationship. no1 loves each other as much.
rushing.. im just rushing. i doubt so. i didnt.. i gives time to it. i nourish it with love, care and dote. de flower didnt blooms. the flower shows it bud and fade off. tats de feeling right nw. fading. isnt improving. i keep watering nowadays. shine it with bright sunlight. sing to it. winds blows it. it still fades. im a lousy gardener i guess.
mayb i just cant be a gardener right nw.
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went facial today. happy times. happy time, just pass super fast. sad, bad times seems to stay there forever.
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i tell myself this and everyday. muz be, muz be! strong. i can de.
be strong hazel chong!
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i have a bag full of swallows. who willing to carry it for me. even if is temporary im more den happy le.