
Saturday, February 28, 2009
suddenly just wanna blog about my BF.
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alot ppl very shock tat he's a yr younger den me. alot of ppl oso say tat we wont last. thinking, family, topic and friends are like diff kind of world.
is indeed he is very diff from all of my other BF.
coz he is de only 1 who promised me something and will try his very best to change. which me myself knew it very well tat guys promises dont fulfill. he didnt make it come true. but he bothers to sparkle it. not like other guys once said and next moment forgets it.
time and time i think tat he is like a burden to me. after so many yrs, i still got to teach him how to treats n love ur own gf. i always feel tat im a guinea pig to him. watever i taught him, wants it. i exchange with tears and ache. sometimes i only get it for a few mins and i still willing to do so.
im sry BF but i feel like saying out. time to time he gave me diff kind of surprises. besides presents. he done things making me super heartache. till i can just cry it out without tears. past me i would just flare without asking qns. and he will just let me scold till he flare den he will mumble back to me afew sentence. he noes he is at fault. which guy will just sit there let u nag n scold at? even they r at fault they would just keep quiet right?
and foolish me always treat him as if he isnt a guy. i always scold him. i always say how foolish is he, how stupid is he. and believe me. he didnt scold nor talkback to me. unless im over do it. i always have this kind of bad habit. scold ppl without giving face.
he have nv hurt me with his hands b4. coz im very small size compare to him. a lil strength will hurt me. he often treat me with care. if he hurt me a lil when he wanna avoid me from danger. i squirt a lil he will str8 pads me. he's just so sweet tat i dunno hw to express out. i can only cry. and im tearing a lil right nw.
and so, we manage to walk till nw. its isnt easy. there's plenty of chances for both of us to leave each other n nv turn bak. but we didnt..
and to wat i noe.. which guy will msg u telling u. dont give up. hold on to me. thx for all de sacrifices u have done. among all i noe. non of them will do it. but he did. not even i've done this to him. without fail fetching me off work. even when he is studying. he will look for those classes tat can avoid to fetch me off work. whenever he got his pocket money, he sure bring it all out for me. get me things tat i have wanted it long ago. bring me for food. good food those kind. make sure im fine and full.
and i still suspect his love for me. ya they always say is only starting will so sweet la and so on.
ever since de start he has nv fail to fetch me off work till nw. he gave me valid reasons if he cant fetch me. even when he is dead tired or exams.
touches me de most is tat he will cry with me. when im in pain and sad. he didnt show it on his face. but i noe he is dead pain. the way he hug me, pads me. look at me. i noes everything.
and he is de only guy tat looks at me with love. his eyes always tell me im at ease. i will be safe. it will be alright and GF i love u.
im crying kinda bad nw. reflecting back to those road we've walked. im just so bad. forgive me BF.
Bf, i hope u will forgive me for those past memories and words i've done n said. u do noe how much i love u. u do noe how much i wants to be with u. thou times i said we wouldnt last. but u noe i want u so much. theres much more path to walkon. are u willing to hold on to me till whenever u can?
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虽然是简单的形容
虽然是重复的动作
因为有你
让一切都变成不平凡
好想缝合你我手心
就这样牵住放不开
有你陪伴
呼吸着有你的空气
就是幸福
Ti amo Te Quiero
每一天都要爱上你
想着你 沉入梦境
一张眼 一清醒
第一个想到又是你
Sa la he And I Love You
我每天都要爱上你
少一天 就会遗憾
陪着你的光阴
怎样都不算蹉跎
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
sorry have been MIA for so many days. was in critical condition. too busy with schedule n stuff.
i think i still nid sometime to come back here. :)
Sunday, February 15, 2009
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!! ok im a day late! coz im busy YST! =))
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14/2/2009
this is me and BF 2nd yr of valentine's day! as wat he says. i didnt change after a yr! still so CHUBBY! but he changed! GOT FATTER! WAH HA!!
BF arrived my hse around noon and surprise me with flowers! =D coz previous day he asked me to chose between the wallet tat i like or flowers? of coz WALLET la!! but end up he got me BOTH!! SEE!! how sweet is he! *faint*

HERE! this is de PUMA wallet he got for me in wallet inc. coz i needed a wallet. and this caught my eye while we r going toilet in JP. so i told him i wanna go bak to take another look and ask for de price.
and so i guess it cost about $80 and he guess is around 50 or less. well, i think too highly of it coz its only 39.90 with 10% discount! and BF get for me on de spot. THANKS BF!!
and b4 tat, on that day when im off to flyer. BF came to fetch me home after it. coz he is having exams that whole week. which left both of us kinda terrible memory la. dont wish to mention anymore since its over.
ya and he came to fetch me. and got me another surprise!! an anklet which i love it very much!

still remembering those words he said to me b4. LOL "spoil ah? repair can le lor" xD but here it is. he got me a new 1 =D
TELL ME!? how not to be contented??!!!

alright this is de V day card from him to me. this card reminds me of another JOKE!! xD. * PS dear pls dont take it to heart k! i dun mean it de =X *

this is my unfinished work. i draw 5 times and didnt really work out! CRIES.

AS USUAL! D.I.Y card for AH DEAR!!
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DEN!! we off to paragon for SOUP SPOON! *HUG DEAR* he really BANZAI! tell me tell me! where to find such a good BF. =X
den we walked to PS for Benjamin Button. i think it was a nice n worthy show. i kinda love de story line. find it abit meaningful if buttons and daisy wasnt so despo for sex thou =.= but its worth it la. xD
DEN! we off to clark quay thinking of settling it at HOOTERS* [ BF pulled me there just to see TIONK TIONK BUTT, HUMPF. AND HE SAYS MINE SHAGGY ALREADY!! ] and so we DID! queue isnt long. food was tasty! we ordered de promotion 1. Clayfish, salmon and pasta as main, Clam Chowder, curly fries and two glass of tiger xD! its around $70. de main was nice. and its filling due to de fries =.=

MR BF! coz he is not feeling well. tats why look so shag. *pads guess those butt didnt light him up! =X

I DONT UNDERSTAND? why muz BF pose for de clam chowder? hmm

helping tiger to promote. BF foto skills SUX la!






=DD
now im waiting for FAT BF to finish his PET's cleanup den off to IKEA!!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
im trying so hard to adapt to this family again. why time and time again u guys kept stabbing me. why in this world ppl just love to stab each other no matter how close r they. friends do, lovers do, enemies do and even family members.
talking about money issue. there's sure be quarrels and even breakup. including Family. few days ago i quarrel with dad about money. last week, last month, last yr and even yst.
alright put money issue aside. talking about quarrels. is it really in such world there is ppl loves to quarrel and hits ppl? i think there do? tats my dad again. imagine u coming home happily with some toys on hand which u caught tat day? and he say " why u bring these rubbish bak again, tat time just throw so many away and nw u bring bak again, make till ur whole Fucking Room so messy " is this meant for our own good? wats rong with GIRL's room filled with toys? and 1 more thing. its only those small lil ones. wat is de fuck rong?
and why muz i always be de understanding one to this family? is indeed im force to be grown up. bcoz ever since im born out i listen to u, these adults complaining to me about this no good and tat no good. and i got to force myself to understand all de situation. i put myself into u adults shoe but did u all put it in mine? when im just reach my 20s u expect me this n tat wat about others? u didnt even wanna hear my complains and u just turn me down with a word FUCK?
when ever im in a bad mood u tell everyone around me tat, "aiya tats her fucking character, fuck care her". is ur mouth only full of fuck? when ur wife isnt around. im just like a substitute to u. den i force myself to turn down all meetings just to meet u. whenever i got my money, pay or haf extra income i think for this family. and u just shout at me saying im dragging this family? u even tell me tat u wanna take room rental fee from me infront of everyone? when i am de 1 who accompany u thru this 20 yrs route. u urself think is dam hard to watch me and feed me up. but have u think about me too dad?
2nd day not feeling well. dam irritating. throats didnt get well and yet added cough with it. stupid package. so worry tat my asthma will come n attack me. guess its slightly there already. and inhaler finishing =.=
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just now ate Yu Sheng and gamble with family. lose alot. luck isnt by my side this few days. Bad omen.
i shud really stay off alot of things recently.
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going flyer tml with lilian and her 2 guy friends. coz she have tickets for it. and she invited me. so sweet of her =D
and 3 days nv meet BF le, due to his final yr exams.
BF jiayous for ur exams.
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im so dead beat unfeeling well. T_T
Saturday, February 7, 2009
u noe the biggest problem im facing right nw is?
Problems with a S.
happiness dont last. not even for a day. mayb an hr or so? it just will soon be over. actually so do babies. they can be giggling at this min and next they are crying for milk or diappys change.
somehow emotions getting so into my life right now. ever since i noe my BF. emotional is de only key word in me already.
since im born to be a girl. god makes me with different kind of char and emotions. some things tat i tends to be strong. and some tends to be weak. i always tells those ppl around me, close to me, far from me about my emotional behavior. i shows it easily on face. sad, angry, happy and so on. even when im suspecting, my face tells everything.
but just no1 really understands wat am i thinking of and so besides my dad. and i do believe karma. i always thinks tat treating some1 good is a previlage to myself. but i guess im rong. i noe good deeds will be recognize by up there. but not forcing urself to be good. no point.
but i just simply dont understand Love. guess i have no1 really loves me for who am i. no, shud not say no1. is so far for those i've met. humans still r realistic. they ought to seek for perfection. who dont? even me. well. humans afterall. but i still get de key of contented.
i strongly believe as i mention b4 i yet growing up. eventually i think i have stop growing this yrs. kinda stubborn and childish. coz i force myself not to. even thou actually i am. coz just got to think too, so much.
but i will try really hard to tone down my temper of coz. but guess de emotional me is got to stay this way. mom genes. i believe myself, if some1 will to cry crocodile tears infront of me. i bet i will be soften down. and mayb cry with de person.
just nw was at JP with family. saw this event going on for Valentine's Day. couples going up for competition, theres judge. guy does everything, girl just stay there n listen to him. see which couple touches de judge de most.
happen to came across with this couple. when de guy singing "tell laurel i love her, tell laurel i nid her." but he changed de laurel to britney which is de GF name. de end de GF cried of coz. so do i. eyes go watery str8. remembering de scene he sangs to me when im crying. sings to me every night without fail. sings to me when im in pain. i guess humans do changed after awhile besides their nature habits.
i think i ever say b4 tat toys are girls best friend. i guess i shud throw this 1 side. no longer logical to me. i still nid a living ear and a mouth. not just something sits there still.
im having a sudden breakdown. i think my last breakdown was many . . many . . yrs ago.
in total i have 3 wounds cut on my left and right hand. 1 is bcoz packing room, 2 is bcoz of marker CAP, 3 is bcoz of toy catcher door. and de 3rd 1 hurts till i cry. =.= just bcoz i wanna get the toy that we have caught. but it stuck on de of de box inside de opening. so i try to put my hand in and de corner cut my thumb deeply. when it is only a plastic opener. =.=
and nw im feeling super sick. throat dam dry, voice changes. hate it. and i just took my LC pilage for a wash. problem with canvas bag. rain stains! which u cant see it but if u see it under strong lighting is super obvious =.= !!!
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yst dropped by PS M)phosis. got 2 pair of slippers and 1 at for less den $20. BF pay for half. so i actually only paid $10 for this 3 items xD..
had dinner at parklane. and i found a place for toy catching which is super worth. i got a Me to You Tatty Bear for 5 dollars. actually shud be less, coz i didnt to BF advice. when he started to tell me how to catch. didnt listen till i left with 1 dollar. so i past it to him and he got it =D
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today actually was told to go for facial. but mom got last min appointment. so changed till next wed. if not Valentine's Day bu mei mei le. xD
and BF have final yr exams so better not to meet him this 2 days let him concentrate his revision. so today i shall stay home and rest, do hse work, wash clothes n so on.
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BYE!
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
i think today i shall be using fotos to blog. im just so happy for today until an hr ago. sometimes i feel so outcast, so no longer belongs to them. words certainly hurts me, so deeply . .
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Hong Bao River - Esplande





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Accompanied BF mugging in his sch.
and i definitely brought alot of "not paying attention" problem. less den 2 hrs we left.
had de famous omelette chicken in his sch Koufu.
tat was nice =D
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BF shock me with this eeyore from he is in de "toilet"
he lied to me tat he is having tummy ache as i believe coz we had yami yogurt previously. so i followed him to de toilet and i went in for my own release. den as usual i go wander around 1st. so i headed to de toy catcher machine to catch some stuff as i see them have rearrange those toys location already.
den i see him walking past so i called him assuming him didnt get to find me. as calling i caught one of it. *small ones* so i left another token. and BF caught de male stitch.
oh about de surprise, b4 de toilet thingy we was in a toy shop name Simply Toy. which ppl rents a box to sell their stuffs inside. and this eeyore caught my eye. THERE! BF started his pattern liao! LOL
THANKS BOYFRIEND!!!

Another collection to my bedhead =D

We caught this 3 for 3 dollars =D
my and boyfriend toy catching stuffs and experience is getting more n more! LOL my whole bedroom is full of toys right nw.
mayb i shud rent a box too..
HMM~
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RanDoms~

THIS SO DAM ADORABLE HAMMY belongs to my FAT BF. no doubts! LOL his sister really have good capturing skills.

Ikea ELE - PANT
anyone have any idea of ikea snakes? coz they seems like not selling it anymore T_T
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IM TEMPTING UDON AGAIN!!