Saturday, February 7, 2009
u noe the biggest problem im facing right nw is?
Problems with a S.
happiness dont last. not even for a day. mayb an hr or so? it just will soon be over. actually so do babies. they can be giggling at this min and next they are crying for milk or diappys change.
somehow emotions getting so into my life right now. ever since i noe my BF. emotional is de only key word in me already.
since im born to be a girl. god makes me with different kind of char and emotions. some things tat i tends to be strong. and some tends to be weak. i always tells those ppl around me, close to me, far from me about my emotional behavior. i shows it easily on face. sad, angry, happy and so on. even when im suspecting, my face tells everything.
but just no1 really understands wat am i thinking of and so besides my dad. and i do believe karma. i always thinks tat treating some1 good is a previlage to myself. but i guess im rong. i noe good deeds will be recognize by up there. but not forcing urself to be good. no point.
but i just simply dont understand Love. guess i have no1 really loves me for who am i. no, shud not say no1. is so far for those i've met. humans still r realistic. they ought to seek for perfection. who dont? even me. well. humans afterall. but i still get de key of contented.
i strongly believe as i mention b4 i yet growing up. eventually i think i have stop growing this yrs. kinda stubborn and childish. coz i force myself not to. even thou actually i am. coz just got to think too, so much.
but i will try really hard to tone down my temper of coz. but guess de emotional me is got to stay this way. mom genes. i believe myself, if some1 will to cry crocodile tears infront of me. i bet i will be soften down. and mayb cry with de person.
just nw was at JP with family. saw this event going on for Valentine's Day. couples going up for competition, theres judge. guy does everything, girl just stay there n listen to him. see which couple touches de judge de most.
happen to came across with this couple. when de guy singing "tell laurel i love her, tell laurel i nid her." but he changed de laurel to britney which is de GF name. de end de GF cried of coz. so do i. eyes go watery str8. remembering de scene he sangs to me when im crying. sings to me every night without fail. sings to me when im in pain. i guess humans do changed after awhile besides their nature habits.
i think i ever say b4 tat toys are girls best friend. i guess i shud throw this 1 side. no longer logical to me. i still nid a living ear and a mouth. not just something sits there still.
im having a sudden breakdown. i think my last breakdown was many . . many . . yrs ago.
Problems with a S.
happiness dont last. not even for a day. mayb an hr or so? it just will soon be over. actually so do babies. they can be giggling at this min and next they are crying for milk or diappys change.
somehow emotions getting so into my life right now. ever since i noe my BF. emotional is de only key word in me already.
since im born to be a girl. god makes me with different kind of char and emotions. some things tat i tends to be strong. and some tends to be weak. i always tells those ppl around me, close to me, far from me about my emotional behavior. i shows it easily on face. sad, angry, happy and so on. even when im suspecting, my face tells everything.
but just no1 really understands wat am i thinking of and so besides my dad. and i do believe karma. i always thinks tat treating some1 good is a previlage to myself. but i guess im rong. i noe good deeds will be recognize by up there. but not forcing urself to be good. no point.
but i just simply dont understand Love. guess i have no1 really loves me for who am i. no, shud not say no1. is so far for those i've met. humans still r realistic. they ought to seek for perfection. who dont? even me. well. humans afterall. but i still get de key of contented.
i strongly believe as i mention b4 i yet growing up. eventually i think i have stop growing this yrs. kinda stubborn and childish. coz i force myself not to. even thou actually i am. coz just got to think too, so much.
but i will try really hard to tone down my temper of coz. but guess de emotional me is got to stay this way. mom genes. i believe myself, if some1 will to cry crocodile tears infront of me. i bet i will be soften down. and mayb cry with de person.
just nw was at JP with family. saw this event going on for Valentine's Day. couples going up for competition, theres judge. guy does everything, girl just stay there n listen to him. see which couple touches de judge de most.
happen to came across with this couple. when de guy singing "tell laurel i love her, tell laurel i nid her." but he changed de laurel to britney which is de GF name. de end de GF cried of coz. so do i. eyes go watery str8. remembering de scene he sangs to me when im crying. sings to me every night without fail. sings to me when im in pain. i guess humans do changed after awhile besides their nature habits.
i think i ever say b4 tat toys are girls best friend. i guess i shud throw this 1 side. no longer logical to me. i still nid a living ear and a mouth. not just something sits there still.
im having a sudden breakdown. i think my last breakdown was many . . many . . yrs ago.
