
i have never ever miss someone so much in my life before till i met u.
Sin Jun Wen you changed my life even me.
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this morning. i woke up early and rush over to BF place to give him a surprise. had breakfast at his place. eggs and bread :D BF cant eat too heavy for breakfast coz he nid to weigh in tekong. after that off to PR for his booking in. the feeling its terrible. the same shirt im wearing during ur enlistment. today also same. but i still hold on my tears. i do not noe why. i noe i will be good and independent but tears still filled my eye.
ever since i reached home just nw. my mouth kept moving non stop till nw! like green bean soup with sweet potato, sour cream ruffles, own baked cookies, famous amos cookies, butter stick, maggie, biscuits and etc. im so dam full right nw. but i still wants to eat. but i noe i will soon be a big fat pig so nw im dashing down warm water to make myself stop eating.
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BF smsed me just nw that his SGT caught him bringing cookies in. which they arent suppose to bring food in bcoz of "BP". BF will always bring 5 or 6 pieces in. 1 day 1 piece. to help himself motivates n countdown. BF often tells me that i am the one who motivates his each day to book out. i shall always be my dear. rmb those words u said b4 and promises. nth will brk it up unless we are apart. heart apart.
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recently i kept tying my hair instead of letting it down already. kinda dislike the hair length. but its good for my scalp. :D but seriously i nid a perm soon or a rebond. and GST rebate is coming in. dad's birthday is around de corner. HP bill explodes last month. yet i kept spending on food! =X
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brought BF to crystal jade la mian xiao long bao for lunch on Sunday. SUPER DUPER GOOD. :D and dinner at my place. i really enjoy those notti times with BF.
BF i love u :D
photos shall update tml or wednesday coz its at desktop. and brother coming home tml night. :D WEEE!
P.S 4 days more. Jys PS
:D GREAT! feeling dam energetic! yst went to fetch BF!!
*PHOTOS*
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he look dam reluctant! bcoz he say he looks kuku -.- but seriously he looks alright right?! ok bak to yst. i reached PR at 9AM! waited around half an hr. den finally chakra coming!! FAT HUBBY! LOL.. anyway we walked to KFC and settle our breakfast. since he say nv control diet oso can slim. might as well be sinful. so! we ate KFC breakfast. their biscuit failed me yet tempt me bcoz of popeye LOL!! den took mrt back to BF hse. slack around at his hse. drank his mom make de liang teh. den leave hse off to town! actually wanna spree de! but dun wan la. budget better :D so bought some lingerie from cotton on, and seriously i love their "love my environment bag".
den wanna buy transformer ticket de. but during the queue. 1 couple approach us to offer to sell us a pair of ticket at $16 inclusive booking fee. den i this "Gian Peng"[ greedy] 1 str8 say ok! LOL.. even thou its dam front. its like third row from de front. but ok la. halfway thru de show i got terrible gastric pain. BF even wanna me to leave de theater. he dam clever hor? coz he noes i wont want to. =.= ACT NIA U! pain for around 15mins or more? den BF asked me to eat some sweet. den ok le =.= stupid! make me pain so long! anyway BF did enjoy de show. yet i kept complaining tat those bad guys died too easy =.= and he kept saying "ITS NICE OK!" ok lor. u pay 1. i LL lor :X AND! didnt noe after show its like 9 plus? totally got no idea de show its 2 and half. i tot its only 2? PENG* coz i dam hungry and only wants kobayashi for dinner!? coz its 9.30PM le. worried will close. but BF insisted to go there to take a look.
coz lunch time i was craving for sashimi. so went to MOGU MOGU. there de service staff, shoot me T_T when i was explaining to BF about de dessert its like Torayaki, and she just hit into my conversation and say " NO! its &*%^$#&)(@$$" i cant rmb wat is it call again. but its just tat torayaki but added ice cream? den nvm. while ordering BF set i add on and say sashimi. den she raise up her hand and ask me to stop. =.= i feel so face being throw aside at the moment =.= i guess if im de previous me. i jit tao show face le. but ya i didnt. so just kept quiet. thanks fully BF hugged me tight at the moment. coz he noes de girl is up to no good? and we sat down. BF did say bad things about her. but nvm la. suan le.
and Marks n Spencer food really SEDAP SEDAP la! BF as usual say i always eat not full de! LOL. anyway we walked to bugis later on to BHG. coz wanna look at Ts. but BF sick of polo le. yet he wants a formal again. but i was telling him dun get repeat design. and lets go dig again. he okies den we off to somewhere else.
and his notti ones still argue with me on eating long john for snacks! fries and chips! he nego so long with me till i agree liao den look at me and ask me " DEAR! PEGLEG OK?" PEG UR PIGU AH! pig leg want? dam notti la! want me cant see u on book out issit? *HUMPF*
ok back to dinner at koba. luckily we went there, there is still alot of ppl eating and queuing. and this BF really dam notti. i dunno why. he is just plainly notti =.= SMS me in de store while he is queuing and im waiting. i so innocent yet he kept scolding me in de SMS :X
anyway we this 2 hungry pig settle dinner super fast. den chat abit. den FIATBOY fetch me home. slack awhile at my home den he cabbed home. a day jiu past like this le =.= why always time with him past so fast. HATED IT!
ok im going to get myself slack awhile den meet BF le. :D
i fucking worried. **** having 2nd case of H1N1. that kuku bastard from ****** when clubbing at Butter Factory. and today 1 of de ** got it too. WTF. really bastard sia.
hope everyone is save in there. *prays* hope my baby able to book out tml. most importantly be save n healthy.
1st and foremost! BF is HOME!! booking in on Sunday night. :D I so dam can recognize him la. yet he cant! he say i slim down T_T he dislikes it. =X i dam rush la. coz its like so sudden he told me he is going towards ferry terminal when im still home!
well! i got him a shirt, seiko watch, cookies, tamago and wire twirler etc! seriously he smells "man" la. but i dun mind. coz he is my BF anyway. but those guys look scary seriously. mayb too big size. LOL! luckily BF never turn too black. but arm and chest melts me. ESP DE CHEST PART. sry, over fantasize.
after fetching him, we rush home to change den off to orchard and have sushi tei. he look dam SUAKU! LOL!! but he really change alot even thou its only 2 weeks. he starts to care seriously about how i eat. like my intake isnt stable, and i can really see de serious in him when he is talking about it to me den de past. he even worries me about eat ice cream and drinking hot tea at de same time when he dont even care in de past. i dunno issit de botak problem. but i really feel he dam fierce right now. i suddenly feel like a lil girl more den a mother in de past. he even will lead me thru crowd right now and pull me thru it. in the past he will just wait for them to past thru den walk behind them and etc. he is so dam manly now. *Melt*
and bcoz 2 weeks i have no contact with guys at all besides dad n cousin. i feel dam butterfly when he touches me. i feel so love again! *fonder fonder , nods*
anyway! we went to watch Land of the Lost. at 1st i was dam sian about it and kept blaming BF choosing tat. but end up luff most was me. i love it! its randomly LAME! and i love random shows!
and right now i got no worries in messy BF hair and can even hit his BOTAK! and his whole arm n hand is so dam big like gonna crush me anytime. ok im fascinating again! but im glad enuff to see him again.
its only 1 day. i cant really tell de great difference he changed right? or mayb temporary who noes? BF, but u really change le. change to some1 tat can really melts me. u always does anyway. but i seriously again. i feel the importance of u in my heart. Dam lots.

he look matured so so much.


tell me how not to addict by him?
P.S. Please Be Healthy Always. You're My Man
有你在身边 爱我一点
是你让我的生命越来越甜
世界不停在变 会爱你多一点
手里的纸杯 连着一条线
请放在耳边 听我的心愿
陪着你成长 保护你安全
一天过一点 宝贝你是一切
有你在身边 爱我一点
是你让我的生命越来越甜
世界不停在变 (世界都在变) 会爱你多一点
世界不停在变 会爱你多一点
希望你能够看见童话中幸福的乐园
太阳有阴晴 月亮有圆缺
在我的眼里 只有你完美
把手交给我 撑出了一个圈
属于你 我的 温暖 值得永远
一路上难免会跌跌撞撞
只要你记得 那里才是家
受伤了别害怕 我在这里给你力量
A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him.
"I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will."
Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"
" All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.
The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.
Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?"
God said: " When I made the woman she had to be special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort. I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children. I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining. I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.
I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart. I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly. And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."
"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."
another 4 days plus to 19. Which is BF booking out day. Butterfly in my stomach keep running around whenever I think of it, make sleepless night for me.. Blogging thru fone sitting in living room watching hellboy. Actually wanna book transformer2 de.. But those days can't be cfm yet bcoz of bf army. :( Nvm lor. Shall discuss it later. Den wanna book for this saturday de.. But can't yet. Think muz wait afew more days to book.
Its monday!! 1 more day to birthday! Wee!
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ppl around me. family. friends. knows me or do not know me. often telling me not to hold on to this relationship too tightly. or some even ask me not to put in hope. all kind of "not suppose to say" things all came out from their mouth. just bcoz he is a yr younger den me.
i dunno whether is it proven that guys are 2 yr younger den their actual age. and girl are much more matured. i dont think so. and doesnt means matured guy is trustworthy? i dare to say during back time. this guy is already 25. he done something really bad to me b4 when we r tgt for a yr plus. so nothing proves that older guys are much more matured?
its depend on their thinking, giving, understanding and such. yes i do have a pampered BF.
He is the only son of his family. and im sad to say that his dad is no longer by his side. that is why his family cherish him a lot. they give him the best of everything. that is why he is very pampered and arrogant at times. but which guy dont? even girls too. he is childish yes im strongly agrees. he is stubborn. i guess most of human are stubborn. during the start of the relationship is very hectic for me. i got to handle family things, job and even him.
but the problem is. he listens. even thou he dun really learn it right away. but he learns! he will ask me what have he done wrong and he will quiet himself down to think about it. so wat he is younger den me? he even work for me during weekend. he rather not going out with his friends, his family. just to work on sunday to pay off my bills. cmon at that time he is only 19. what more can i expect?
nowadays, youngster.. do u all often see them staying home helping out hse chores every weekend without complain? hold his mom hands, kiss his mom. going home for dinner often.
he is not mom's boy. but he will give up his love 1 for his family when there is a need. he did b4. and i understand it thou. and i can tell u. younger guys tends to be sweeter den older 1.
even thou i only get it during the start of relation. im contented thou. he will pack breakfast leaving it at my doorstep each morning b4 he goes to sch.
now? he will wake up early as b4 just to come over to my place for breakfast. he nv fails to reject my needs. what surprise me the most is tat he will rmb whatever i have told him b4 and such. besides people. he tends to forget their name n looks easily. hahas.
he have such nice nature i believe its from his family also. most importantly is that he wont hurt me. he will nv nv nv ever be rough on me. not even pinning towards de wall nor shout loudly at me outside. on fone is another case la.
he really matured a lot a lot. even if he is not in army. i always lose my confident against myself and bringing him anger. and make me loses trust on him. but for these days. he nv fail to build up those trust and time to time he will ensure me with love, actions n words.
i guess i wont say much already. those who often reads my blog. i would like to apologize. he isnt that bad as what i have blogged b4. those are angered words. he is a great guy.
P.S. JunWen You Are The Best.
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its another 6 days for me to hold him again. but around 2 days i got to hang on again. i guess thats my life right now for de next following 2 yrs n counting.
my cousins got me an ear piece. =D its a great 1. and works great on my new mp3. but BF a birthday present also. and a seiko watch. HAHAS!
i started to miss my BF again. not in the mood to blog le. cha nah..
Army life, i can say we partially kind of adapt to it already. for me, i started to tear little. not as much as de past few days. guess we are just too sticky. thats why it takes longer time to adapt. but right now. heard that his training its getting tougher. but i strongly believe that my boy is able to endure it true.
army basically also let our love get fonder. and made as matured. i starts to get much more independent. walking on streets alone. its not that bad thou. coz he always stays in me. my mind and heart. :)
i believe that i have said this many many times. but i just like to say it again. i really grew a lot in this relationship. thou time to time i get so childish that its so obvious that i me myself cant even take it. hahas. right at this moment. he is the only man i wanna spent my life with.
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FINALLY! its Thursday! 1 more Thursday im able to see my BF! and as usual work today. after work i headed str8 to DG to MAC and get de cup for BF. i miss the previous 1. any1 has extra for de previous 1? can sell me or so?
living room tiles just being smashed. next monday or tuesday gonna put on new tiles. =D brand new living room. alright. i got to off to hand write diary for BF le. TATA
P.S - BF, its only like 6 days. i noe i haven been good. i skip meals. i didnt take care of myself well. i even drop my weigh down. which u dislike the most. my misses never ever cut down each day yet it grows. my regrets is never ending. i always re read my previous blog, ur blog and current blog. my heart aches so much. they always say wat.. live with no regrets and etc. but i do. i regret i nv cherish u well. actually i got to thanks to Army. without this, there is many things i didnt notice it. Example, ur care and dote towards me. nv fail making me smile. i finally get what u mean right now. how important is my smile to you.
I Love You JunWen
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Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.
Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.
Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.
Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.
For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.
Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.
Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...

Lets talk about my life right now. im getting myself rdy for another job hop. hop to a full time 1. i nid to leave de japan restaurant asap. i dislike the place. lots of internal conflicts and bias ppl working around. time have shorten. how can i earn like this? i nid savings!
on Sunday im able to pass cousin those stuff tat was suppose to pass to BF. BF was happy to be able get to taste chocolates again. coz i pack some for him and his favorite biscuits. yst night i cried on fone with him again. heard tat his training is getting tougher. my heart brks. he is still my precious. of coz i cant bear to let him suffer. words it is still words. how will i bear to see him suffer. but he told me. " baby, don't you want me to be matured? i am now. at least i grow a lil "
ur lil words brighten me up. but 2nd worries came onto me. will ur mindset changed? will ur ideal or wanting change?
"love or relationship is like fishing
you got to let the string to be loose at times and tight at times...
if not the string will cut..."
i got this words from BFF. i believe this words don't mark on me. bcoz i nv let him these freedom. i always doubt on him due to the past. actually its isnt his fault. its both of us. but that is like yr plus ago de issue. i dun wish to mention it anymore.
and today its our Monthsary. Barby! its our 1 yr 6 months being tgt! so fast another half month pass by le. and soon my 21st its coming. and BF is coming back. and thursday dad is gonna change my living room flooring. i mayb no home le!! LOL.. coz cannot step into de living room. BF offered me to his home to stay. but i rejected. coz i dun wan to alarm his family. its a small case.
looking up on my bed head and around my room. BF really spent alot of money on me, on those eeyore stuffy n etc. on 4June. he oso bought me another eeyore cushion. he even got me 200grams of chocolates from candy empire, 2 packet of super ex dairy milk. brought me to carls junior. and ichiban sushi for dinner. which all along i dont bother to queue bcoz of de long queue. but BF bring me there. and their chawan n soft shell really great. and yet i still quarrel with him during the night. yst he told me he rather spent those quarreling day with me den now. separated.
yst he called me. telling yst training was tough. some of his platoon CMI le. but he still can cope. I am proud of u Boy. i noe u r so tired and yet u still sing my heart song out to calm me down. useless me only noe how to cry. childish =.=
glad tat i have wrote u 14 days of letters. hope those motivates u. yst night he was so tired till when we put down our fone. normally he will send me a good night msg. but he didnt. as usual i will rush thru my sms to him 1st. coz worry he will off his fone str8 after he send me those sms. and i waited why there is no sms from him de. 5 mins later i try calling him. he off fone le. as usual, me this childish 1 cried. writing on de my diary saying. " i heard b4 tat true love could hear 1 an other even thou they are far apart " and next moment i received his sms. I SWEAR i didnt lie. this really happen to me yst.
u guys noe, b4 tat during our rocky time in our relationship. starting of love. we get so rocky. we quarrel very very worse each day. but we kept seeing miracle. some may say is coincidental. some may say is miracle. but i only believe in myself. as time goes by. this coincidental fade away le. and nw it came back. i really hope is upstairs knew tat. they heard us. *prays*
i may seems childish. i think different kind of ppl, different kind of expressions. so u all ready le, just put aside. no nid to comment. ty (:
ppl often warn me. to step aline. dun get too deep. if not die le oso dunno why. but when u did ur best. even if it fails. at least there is no regret right? im those kind. and tit for tat kind. i believe till now. he is worth for me doing tat. future wise. i let time leads our way. ((:
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Saw a story and a blog entry from someone's blog. I wish to share.
" Cherish what u have, love who is with you, despite what time has taken away. For no matter how the person changed with time, she/he was the one u fell in love with in the very first place.
Details we forget actually are the details so valuable. why do we let flaws cover perfections? Never should we forget, when you love someone, we turn their greatest flaws into their greatest points. What makes one different, makes one beautiful. For when one takes, one should return willingly.
Commitment is not tiring but a act of love. "
Don't you think its just so true. there's another story to share with u all.
It's gonna be a long story. i believe those interested ones will read it. and its worth the read.
"Never Say Divorce"
1 NEVER SAY DIVORCE. When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Judy. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Judy so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table.. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Judy. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Judy about my wife’s divorce conditions.. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd.. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I
2 nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office. On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Judy about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me... She had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly.. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Judy opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Judy, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Judy, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until deaths do us apart. Judy seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.
3 That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah..blah..blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a really happy marriage!
its raining. i wonder is he alright. everybody have been saying tat im useless. BF only going army. cry for wat. some even say i dun love him. only nids him. isnt bcoz i love him tats why i nid him? i miss his touch. i miss his voice. i miss his warm. during the night. i rather he not call. each time i hear his voice. i brk into tears. my heart aches alot when i noe he trying to be strong talking to me when he is going to brk out soon.
i only can hear his voice for less den 15 mins daily. i really worries tat his fone will low batt. coz everyday he nids to call me and his family. its only 2 days and a half. there is 12 days more to go. am i really tat useless ): i hope work can bring down my misses to him.
like he said. we share the same sky. im waiting for cousin to come over so i can pass BF de specs and fotos. i even wrote him 14 letters. i noe is noob. but i just wanna support him. i oso secretly pack some chocolates n oreo. i hope BF able to eat it.
May God Bless him always! I love u
2June
woke up around 8 prepare myself and get to phoon huat to get ingredients to bake cake for BF. den rush home to meet BF for Sims3 event.


the dress code was in green. and we wore green ((: and we got their poster.
manage to get their limited t-shirt. but didnt manage to get their hairband. ): BF kept wanting to get it for me. but nid to participate in events. i dont wan him to rush thru those crowd and make himself perspire and pushed bcoz of tat. so i gave it a skip.
had soup spoon for lunch. and off str8 home to try my sims. try to persuade BF to go home for dinner and i lie to him going to mom place for facial. but actually im baking a cake for him. and i swear baking isnt easy n its not cheap at all! o well. its worthwhile afterall. ((:
planned up with all his friends. met at sembawang for supper at xing wang. i was there late. so his friend help me to place de cake at xing wang 1st. but BF felt fishy already. he knew we are up to something. HAHAS.
after supper-ing i n his friend wanna go get de cake de. but BF la! kept turning and look at us. but he did get de surprise la. coz he didnt noe i baked a cake for him. and he tot we was planning to make fun of him.






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BF always noe im snapping him. super thick skin la him..


den i started to say him! and he make fun of me.. see he SO happy!



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Sims3 Package


CowonS9

and u noe wat. so wat i got all this. wat i really want right now is him.
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BF got enlisted today. i crying like water tap. even till now. i still tears. luckily my cousin is a SGT inside. blur BF forget to bring de most important thing. his SPECS! so im gonna pass to my cousin and pass to BF inside. BF! u muz do ur best inside alright. and i will be a good girl as i once promised u. and i will do as wat u ask me to do. take many many pictures and show u. even thou i cant celebrate our 547 days being tgt n my 21st birthday with u. but u will always be beside me. i miss u BF. sry to let u see i cry tat badly today. i couldnt resist it. i love u..
I can't believe that its actually another 4 days to go for BF army enlistment. What shud actually a GF do right now? Stand by his side and watch? Things all already packed properly. Hope nth goes wrong.
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tml its Sims3 day. im gonna early prepare to be at iluma right b4 2 of coz. im not gonna miss out de chance of grabbing de t-shirt ((:
P.S random
dad noes me too well. i cant hide. emotions filled within me. i dont bear to i dont bear to. its only 2 weeks hazel. whats rong with u? i cant believe it. im no longer as strong as in de pass. separate with u 3 days i already started crying on de 2nd day. issit we quarrel too much and make fun of each other SO SO much till im so use to being shout n yelled by u now n den. having good night sweet voices, songs, laughter, angry and etc..
feifei can sense tat im getting unhappy or emo when im listening to sad songs. he will look at me and tell me its gonna be alright. but still when i sees him. reminds me of u. *he looks too much like u dear*
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i shud stop emoing right now.. its time to prepare to leave hse le. Ciaos..