Monday, December 14, 2009
C: hey ho! finally home! im out since 8am till now :O
working is duper fantastic today. great peeps great environment great freedom and of coz huge motivation to finish the work bcoz BF is here to fetch me! tml too C: and my manager gave Bf free treat over in the restaurant.
after that Bf and i walked to PS intend to watch movie but i wanna skip it. Bf got me a top from cotton on as my tube is too loose -___- so Bf chose a top for me which i much prefer another top thou :/ and he kept saying "this top very nice wat" throughout the whole half day. LOL! anyway F21 at 313 is girl's heaven. i believe i can really go broke over there. i am so gonna work hard and earn money to get things i want there! :3 and i still thinking whether to get the heels over at CnK. Bf say is nice but not really nice due to the front of it and is not cheap thou, and i really wanna brk my own thinking that buying shoes for partner is alright. coz i wanna get that pair for Bf at river island. o well, let me reconsider.
but im still happy over my schedule for this week.
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just now during the walks, Bf n i had some quarrel. our communication breakdown so much ever since he got into army i think? we get so hard on each other nowadays that makes me really tired of being attached. i dunno why these small lil issues still occurs in this 2 yrs relationship. arent we suppose to know each other better? but it seems like right now is not..
i want him to speak up, but he always remain quiet. it seems like whenever we quarrel or whatsoever, it is always begins with me. that's what he say. i triggers him.. i feel im sucha failure being a Gf. i always thot that i have already over do what a gf shud do already, but it seems not. it seems to him that im still a useless kind. besides that he does pampered and dote me alot. he will pads onto my head and cheer me up when ppl pull me down. whenever he can, he able. he buys me everything/anything i need or wants and not get himself anything, always. he has nv complains or nag on me saying anything when he overspent on me, why issit i still expect it to be another kind of way of love? isnt this, girls really need and want? i guess what i really nid he can never give or nv know.
just bcoz i grow up in a broken family ever since very young. im lack of many many things in life which i really want right now. but in love, things is always nv fair or etc.. you can nv expect it to be the way u wanted it to be or change it to the way u want it to be. that's no longer love.
but i still got to say, i do cherish Bf a lot. i love him so much that i dont even noe what's right and wrong. hais, i just dunno how to put in words anymore.
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late dinner tonight.. but thanks to Bf for getting me a packet of rice if not im sure gonna get hungry. C: time to go to bed with fat fluff tummy as tml got to wake up early for work. C:
i miss Bf, i love Bf. but i just dun wanna say it out. what's the problem with me man.
working is duper fantastic today. great peeps great environment great freedom and of coz huge motivation to finish the work bcoz BF is here to fetch me! tml too C: and my manager gave Bf free treat over in the restaurant.
after that Bf and i walked to PS intend to watch movie but i wanna skip it. Bf got me a top from cotton on as my tube is too loose -___- so Bf chose a top for me which i much prefer another top thou :/ and he kept saying "this top very nice wat" throughout the whole half day. LOL! anyway F21 at 313 is girl's heaven. i believe i can really go broke over there. i am so gonna work hard and earn money to get things i want there! :3 and i still thinking whether to get the heels over at CnK. Bf say is nice but not really nice due to the front of it and is not cheap thou, and i really wanna brk my own thinking that buying shoes for partner is alright. coz i wanna get that pair for Bf at river island. o well, let me reconsider.
but im still happy over my schedule for this week.
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just now during the walks, Bf n i had some quarrel. our communication breakdown so much ever since he got into army i think? we get so hard on each other nowadays that makes me really tired of being attached. i dunno why these small lil issues still occurs in this 2 yrs relationship. arent we suppose to know each other better? but it seems like right now is not..
i want him to speak up, but he always remain quiet. it seems like whenever we quarrel or whatsoever, it is always begins with me. that's what he say. i triggers him.. i feel im sucha failure being a Gf. i always thot that i have already over do what a gf shud do already, but it seems not. it seems to him that im still a useless kind. besides that he does pampered and dote me alot. he will pads onto my head and cheer me up when ppl pull me down. whenever he can, he able. he buys me everything/anything i need or wants and not get himself anything, always. he has nv complains or nag on me saying anything when he overspent on me, why issit i still expect it to be another kind of way of love? isnt this, girls really need and want? i guess what i really nid he can never give or nv know.
just bcoz i grow up in a broken family ever since very young. im lack of many many things in life which i really want right now. but in love, things is always nv fair or etc.. you can nv expect it to be the way u wanted it to be or change it to the way u want it to be. that's no longer love.
but i still got to say, i do cherish Bf a lot. i love him so much that i dont even noe what's right and wrong. hais, i just dunno how to put in words anymore.
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late dinner tonight.. but thanks to Bf for getting me a packet of rice if not im sure gonna get hungry. C: time to go to bed with fat fluff tummy as tml got to wake up early for work. C:
i miss Bf, i love Bf. but i just dun wanna say it out. what's the problem with me man.
