Sunday, December 20, 2009
mixed feelings -____-
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ok i shall blog about de recent activities that leave huge impression inside my mind. on Wednesday i went to look for BF during his nights out. we had kfc for dinner and desserts in my favorite dessert stall. after that as usual lor, walk around. as for this nights out Bf is able to book in at 2330. so nth to do much oso. we walked into SASA to test and smell perfumes. and this perfumer which have banner on it saying best seller. i find the outlook cute so i test on it.
i fall in love with it instantly, and there's a promoter saying that this perfume having package Christmas sales. originally 69 for 30ml, but this package includes body wash and body lotion. thou i wan it so much but i got to skip it as im financially tight. so we walked out and i wanna go toilet la. SO! when i came out i didnt see Bf around assuming he is poot pooting la. but quite awhile he didnt come out. i started to panic. phone him oso didnt listen. as im sensitive kind of person la, so i was thinking dont tell me he is in de SASA getting me the perfume. so i went there and he is really there!! he bought me that PERFUME luh! i was like O_O stunned. lols he wanted to surprise me actually, but i found out :/
Thanks Love! *heart*
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Friday didnt meet Bf due to his battalion night. as his company is de organizer they nid to kio sai. so its late, he doesnt wants me to be out at such late timing so i stayed home. Saturday morning he came late to accompany me for breakfast as previous night he was kinda drunk and over slept. so we headed to Pek kio market for breakfast as Bf nv been thr b4. den night time headed over to Bf's house for Dong Zhi reunion dinner. C: they played mahjong as Bf requested them to bcoz he wanna teach me how to play oso. stress*
during halfway i was kinda down thou due to some matters between bf and me. but i handle it calmly and had a talk with him after that and everything was solved.
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anyway recently Bf n i having huge communication breakdown. when i say huge, i really mean HUGE. ya, like Bf often says we love each other very much and it make that whatever we say we take it seriously. words often made the both of us teared and angered.
his temper recently had gone really bad due to army stuff. i am trying my very best to act with him and go with him along all this months. its tiring thou, at times i nearly gave up. this problems even occurred when im working, shitting, peeing, sleeping, eating, walking, running, climbing and etc. YES, girl is always thinking. but without us girl keep thinking, problem will nv be solve. yes problem will fade off but it will still comes back bcoz it has not be settled isnt am right?
SO, till now i have still no conclusion to this yet. just let love leads our way. if 1 day either side no longer wanna walked on, it is obvious already huh.
i always tell myself that laughing and smiling could be conversation into a easier way to communicate. but im rong. no matter how hard a person trying to be, it is still acting. cause in the end, you are the 1 getting hurt.
my BFF told me b4 about u wan to be nice? den swallow ur pride. if not dun act. this is love. u sacrifice then u keep quiet. how hurting how aching cry to urself not to the opposite.
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and i oso noe and oso no idea why am i getting slimmer each day. and im 41kg right now. every1 say is body problem. but me myself knows it clearly that is bcoz i work during the weekday and dun eat much after that. OK! i know is all about me. i just prefer to eat munchies den a meal wat :/ and also, i dunno wanna be so sticky. u noe wat i mean thou.
i rmb telling this to a friend b4. " THEY ARE IN THE ARMY, THEY SHUD BE THE 1 WHO MISS US LIKE MAD. NOT US, THEY SHUD BE THE 1 DEMAND TO MEET UP. NOT US" bcoz we are free and they r not. but why i seems to be not the 1 that i have mentioned? dammit -____-
ok i over blog already. BYE!
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ok i shall blog about de recent activities that leave huge impression inside my mind. on Wednesday i went to look for BF during his nights out. we had kfc for dinner and desserts in my favorite dessert stall. after that as usual lor, walk around. as for this nights out Bf is able to book in at 2330. so nth to do much oso. we walked into SASA to test and smell perfumes. and this perfumer which have banner on it saying best seller. i find the outlook cute so i test on it.
i fall in love with it instantly, and there's a promoter saying that this perfume having package Christmas sales. originally 69 for 30ml, but this package includes body wash and body lotion. thou i wan it so much but i got to skip it as im financially tight. so we walked out and i wanna go toilet la. SO! when i came out i didnt see Bf around assuming he is poot pooting la. but quite awhile he didnt come out. i started to panic. phone him oso didnt listen. as im sensitive kind of person la, so i was thinking dont tell me he is in de SASA getting me the perfume. so i went there and he is really there!! he bought me that PERFUME luh! i was like O_O stunned. lols he wanted to surprise me actually, but i found out :/
Thanks Love! *heart*
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Friday didnt meet Bf due to his battalion night. as his company is de organizer they nid to kio sai. so its late, he doesnt wants me to be out at such late timing so i stayed home. Saturday morning he came late to accompany me for breakfast as previous night he was kinda drunk and over slept. so we headed to Pek kio market for breakfast as Bf nv been thr b4. den night time headed over to Bf's house for Dong Zhi reunion dinner. C: they played mahjong as Bf requested them to bcoz he wanna teach me how to play oso. stress*
during halfway i was kinda down thou due to some matters between bf and me. but i handle it calmly and had a talk with him after that and everything was solved.
__
anyway recently Bf n i having huge communication breakdown. when i say huge, i really mean HUGE. ya, like Bf often says we love each other very much and it make that whatever we say we take it seriously. words often made the both of us teared and angered.
his temper recently had gone really bad due to army stuff. i am trying my very best to act with him and go with him along all this months. its tiring thou, at times i nearly gave up. this problems even occurred when im working, shitting, peeing, sleeping, eating, walking, running, climbing and etc. YES, girl is always thinking. but without us girl keep thinking, problem will nv be solve. yes problem will fade off but it will still comes back bcoz it has not be settled isnt am right?
SO, till now i have still no conclusion to this yet. just let love leads our way. if 1 day either side no longer wanna walked on, it is obvious already huh.
i always tell myself that laughing and smiling could be conversation into a easier way to communicate. but im rong. no matter how hard a person trying to be, it is still acting. cause in the end, you are the 1 getting hurt.
my BFF told me b4 about u wan to be nice? den swallow ur pride. if not dun act. this is love. u sacrifice then u keep quiet. how hurting how aching cry to urself not to the opposite.
__
and i oso noe and oso no idea why am i getting slimmer each day. and im 41kg right now. every1 say is body problem. but me myself knows it clearly that is bcoz i work during the weekday and dun eat much after that. OK! i know is all about me. i just prefer to eat munchies den a meal wat :/ and also, i dunno wanna be so sticky. u noe wat i mean thou.
i rmb telling this to a friend b4. " THEY ARE IN THE ARMY, THEY SHUD BE THE 1 WHO MISS US LIKE MAD. NOT US, THEY SHUD BE THE 1 DEMAND TO MEET UP. NOT US" bcoz we are free and they r not. but why i seems to be not the 1 that i have mentioned? dammit -____-
ok i over blog already. BYE!
